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Friday, October 19, 2007

I dun feel like blogging actually. sorry, but only those people who know what's going on in my pathetic life would understand what i'm saying.

I feel like such a loser for not being able to say some simple things.
those simple words simply wont come out from my mouth. wonder how long it'll take for me to finally speak out my mind, my honest opinion and my point of view. am i making things worse? is it my fault for doing that? am i wrong to do what i think is right? i was crazy, i agree. but what's done is done. i think it's too late for me to fix things now. do i even want to fix it back and live the old life? i think some people would do the same if they're in my shoe. i wasn't exactly thinking straight. but i've done all those shit and things happened. it's too late for me to regret things now. i'm trying my best to convince myself that i've done the right thing and i can live with it. but so far, once or twice i'll think back about those shit. the guilt and the regret. i've been thinking how things would turn out if i had chosen the other option. it'd be harder for me. i dun think i have a choice but to live my life like what it is. Things happen. i can't lie much longer. no matter how hard i try to cover the lies, it'll soon be revealed. so might as well stop now. it'd be easier for me. or is it not? this matter has been haunting me for days. but i'm trying my best already. what if i can't live with it? what if i was wrong? what if i didn't do what i had done? will things be better? or worse? i really thank you guys for the concern. but i dun think anyone knows exactly what i'm going through.

WHAT TO DO?
such a wonder, for one to be confused and lost over a simple matter.
it'd be splendid if i can just go over, give a piece of my mind and get things over with. but CANNOT. just cannot! i dunno why the heck i can't do those simple things. why is it so hard??? why must it be so complicated??? lots of questions swimming in my head. none of them answered. why must it be you?? stupid shit.

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