Take Me To The Disco

Thursday, December 6, 2007

YAY! finally change blogskin!
didn't find the most spectacular one, but this one will do :D great thanks to Jasmine my dear! :DD love ya!

let's start.
for the girls who know. yes, i've had it. i dun wan to waste anymore of my time. i just find it pointless honestly. cos first of all, it's going nowhere. and i have doubts in everything right now. he just seems like a guy who doesn't mean wad he says. i can bet he forgot wadever he said to me. and i even doubt he actually remember my birthday. i dunnoe what he's thinking, i dunnoe how he feels, i dunnoe his social circle, i dunnoe wad he's up to..i noe nothing. and the feeling of not knowing wad actually is going on sucks. he may even be talking or woo-ing another girl. i dunnoe. and the worries are getting stuck in my mind, haunting me every minute. everything just seemed to go wrong and he's a totally different person than the guy i knew last time. or have i been blind?? you guys might think that i'm insecure and i'm being paranoid. but i'm telling you, this one is guaranteed hopeless.

One thing i should make clear. I won't get stuck over him. as i was told, when one get into this kinda thing, one must be prepared for the ending, no matter good or bad. so yeah. it's not big of a deal anyway. It's not like i'm looking for a soulmate, so why should i rush? i'm just gonna enjoy my youth, my secondary school life, with the ones.

The ones who've been there for me, the ones who guided me to where i am now, the ones who can actually make me laugh during my toughest time, the ones who truly knows me, the ones who have been lending listening ears and shoulders to cry on and always stand by me. they give me the support that i need. they give me the joy when i'm in despair. they give the inspiration. and they give me the meaning to live.

while YOU, on the other hand!
be sweet only when u need somebody to talk to! call when u need a listening ear but never lend one! never been there when i need! u can make me feel depressed even when i'm high! u make me cry but never lend a shoulder! u demoralized me! AND u give me the reason to commit suicide! GAH!

YOU can go flirt around and woo any girl u wan in this whole wide world for all i care. u can apologize gazilion times and even threat me that u'll kill urself. dude, it'll be the best movie. i'll laugh my heads off i'm telling u! there's just one thing left i need to do before i finally get over you. everything will end by the end of this year. believe me, it will. i dun give a damn about you anymore. if this doesn't matter to you, then why should it matter to me?? so u can go and die for all i care!!

k feels much better now.

i was thinking back about some things. like how i met my frends and my seniors. then i realized that i've wasted ALOT OF TIME on YOU! so i think after this, i'll have ALOT OF FREE TIME. i can save ALOT OF MONEY. i can do ALOT MORE THINGS. i can focus ALOT MORE ON NETBALL. and my life will be a WHOLE LOT MORE MEANINGFUL.

you suck, seriously.
i'll get over you. trust me, I will :DD

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